.March 22, 2006 ' 21:10 Y
today was _____(i dont know.) i was feeling all whootsadaisy. it was a bad morning. i feel like staying in bed the whole day. my feet says
go to school but my mind says
stay siti stay. but i did go to school today. went to school and didnt care what was around me. i just felt like ignoring everyone. had trg. the girls made me feel better. and i talked to YOU on the way home. it made me feel better. I'M SORRY but ya. and yesterday was the WORSE day of my entire life. i'm losing everything. everyone i love. bit by bit. WHY!!!!! why must it be like this. why must it happen to me. why. why. fcuk this shit! i'm sorry but the pain i'm feeling are all coming at one shot in such little time. i love them so much. you know that kinda feeling when the world just throw all the pain it can find on you. thats how i feel. my knees went weak. and i couldnt stand on my own two feet. as the night gets older, not younger, more things happened. and i'm sorry. i really feel that God's not giving me a chance to feel alright now. everything is falling down. everything.
God, forgive me for everything. Forgive me for keeping everything inside me. Forgive me for what happen. i want everything to go back to normal and that all of us will love each other again. i want everything to be ok. i want to be that girl who can go around telling the world that i dont need anything else but them. i love all of them. so much. i dont want any of them to bare grudges with one another. i dont wanna be the only one to be ok after this. i want everything to end. i want us to be normal again. i love her. and her. and her. and him. and him.(you know who you are.). i dont need anything else but them. theyre my friends. theyre someone i love. they mean so much to me. please God, please let everything be ok again. please let us say everything and really clear things out. please God for i am begging you. please help me. please help us.
SITY KAY!